Lyrics of Nothing right

I've often hit the nail on the head
And yet i was merely strangled
I've often called the voice of my life
And yet it was merely the past
If i should see the future beaming with joy
I will forgive myself

Tell me the meaning of my life
Tell me the meaning of forgiveness
Tell me the meaning of my death
And why i'm a murderer

I've often dared, but defeat caught my eye
So many years i believed in myself
All these years without any success
All these years without, like a dilettante

Tell me the meaning of my life
Tell me the meaning of forgiveness
Tell me the meaning of my death
And why i'm a murderer

A whole life full of mistakes
A whole life in order to resist
My tears are filling up an ocean
A character in a play
Always the same things in my hand

Tell me the meaning of my life
Tell me the meaning of forgiveness
Tell me the meaning of my death
And why i'm a murderer