Lyrics of Me and my madness

I hear string in songs when they're not there
I see things in darkness when i'm scared
I feel cold out when it's sunny
Make a joke and laugh about it
Feel like you're a moving target
Wish all this had never started
Cut my hair and then i cut my skin
Hurt myself instead of hurting him
Feels like it's a nightmare i'm in
Say one thing and think another
Stay in bed cos you're not bothered
Pray that it will soon be over
He told you that he loved you he'd stay with you
Oh you're a fool
Don't believe what people say they never stay anyway
He kissed me and then he stayed the night
I can't see that things could work out right
Seems as if i'll mess up some way
Hold his hand the world seems all new
Understand things when he's near you
Now he's gone it all seems untrue
He left her he said he cared that he'd be there
When you're scared
(dont believe what those people say it's lies anyway)
I don't think they will/ i just can't sit still
Funny kind of ill/ i don't wanna think about it
Showed me that your love/ but it's not enough
I can't ever trust/ i don't wanna think about it
You're there by my side/ then i asked you why
Could it be you lied?/ i don't wanna think about it.
My phone rings but there's no one there (hello?)
All my dreams have vanished in thin air
Was it real when you said you'd care
Once you kissed or did you dream it?
Bought a gift but he's not seen it
How'd you know he didn't mean it?
When he's gone it all goes wrong
Smashed up your home now you're alone
All of what you said/ goes round in my head
When i lie in bed/ i don't wanna think about it
I'm too paranoid/ you could get annoyed/
So did other boys/ i don't wanna think about it.
Heard it all before/ gets to be a bore
God my head is sore/ i don't wanna think about it