Lyrics of Build a bride and jump off it

Lonely and restless on the coldest of nights
With these thoughts on my mind that keep pulling me down.
I'm only fooling everyone else,
So that everyone else turns their back (turn their back)on me.

So let go of these feelings, that i'm keeping inside
Or hold on, cause i'm feeling like i'm barely alive.
Lay back, as this pain takes over me.
Broke down cause my head was spinning out of control
Nineteen years, and i've got nothing to show
We're only getting older now.

This pain seems forgotten
But inside i'm rotting (i'm rotting)
Thinking of all this time
Left to waste then die
The only thing i know for sure
Is i don't care anymore.

And when i'm gone
Well, i hope you have the strength to move on
Angry, but i'm told to not complain
Recluse, but i'm better off this way
This is not what i want, but i'll just bite my tongue
I'm hungry, but i'm too tired to eat
Tired, but i'm too hungry to sleep
We're only getting older now

And it hurts.
Save me cause i'm drowning,
Please give me more time
Cause i cant keep on counting
It feels like i'm blinded now
As they shut me out
But i'm trying to see
Please make this stop

My pain seems forgotten
But inside i'm rotting
Thinking of all this time.
I wait to die
But i'm not going to know what i'm doing hear
So why cant you give me a sign
And as i drown now
Swimming in an ocean of fear
My last regret is
Never knowing why i'm here.