Lyrics of Watch me now, i'm calling

I'm closing up, i'm shutting down, i took a vow of silence
You won't hear me from now on, you'll only see the violence

I put some water into a pot and brought it to a boil
I poured it on my arm without any reflex of recoil
I made sure it'd miss my hand 'cause i need it to play in a band
I thought i would scream but i didn't feel a thing

Then i took some ice and the sharpest knife
And brought 'em to my room
I sat there thinking of you and what i ought to do

Then i picked a spot and numbed it up
'cause carving can take some time
Then i dug your name out of my skin
'cause in my head, you're in my mind, mind

Wo, i realized with some urgency, that all this is child's play
I need to learn to speak in a more effective way
But just what is the desired effect and why have i been stalling?
I want you to feel it, watch me now, i'm calling

Over at the hospital, they will dress my wounds
But they won't really heal until they're touched by you