Lyrics of Nothing changed

And so i lashed out outside and in
Vented my anger at every whim
I kicked the dog after poisoning his food
I couldn't think of anything else to do
And i was scared
Oh lord so scared
And i couldn't dare
To really think about it all
And today
Nothing has changed
Nothing changed
Nothing has changed at all
And so i sink and sink and withdraw in
Looking up numbers of suicide hotlines
I almost cry no specific reason why
I fantasize about the day i die
And i am scared
Oh lord so scared
And when will i dare
To really think about it all
Because this way
Nothing will change
Nothing will change
Nothing will change at all