Lyrics of Alibis

From the scrapes and bruises
To the familiar abuses
I'll kick and scream
But it never changes anything

I could spill my guts out
Wearing my best little girl pout
I almost missed it
But nobody said this was gonna be easy

This is not the man i hoped to be
And i'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my faces are alibis, and me
I'm half the man i wanted to be

Most times it all comes out wrong
I don't know the words but i'll hum along
There's nothing familiar here anymore
To anyone or anything enough to feel alive

And i still taste that sickness
And it makes me crazy without it at best
But i'm in the same place i used to be
But i'm trying harder not to be

This is not the man i hoped to be
And i'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my faces are alibis, and me
I'm half the man i wanted to be

So what am i
What am i
So what am i and all my
All my faces are alibis
This is not the man i hoped to be
And i'm just trying to stop the bleeding

I don't know how the words go
I just started not to say no
(all my...)

Don't want it, don't get it
I know you won't regret it
(all my...)

Don't surface, don't surface
And i feel so damn worthless
(all my...)

Another day is gone
And all my faces are alibis
And all my faces are alibis and me
I'm half the man i wanted to be