Lyrics of This one is for charity

What if i said death is what turns me on?
Substantial, intellectual songs.
What if i said life is all in your head?
I'm a cynic and a heartless, cold, embodied red neck.

Oh i feel like i'm never gonna leave this head.

What if i said death is my only fear?
Lying with my bed's cloth, lying with my bed's cloth.
What if i said life is my only hate?
Crying with my bed's cloth, crying with my bed's cloth.

(chorus)

So tell me where am i?
Who am i?