Lyrics of For peter

I meant to write you many times
But i just didn't know where to start
I thought about you in your cell
And the way you always said
That you would rather die
Than having your freedom taken back
You ask me
If i loved you
Enough to hold your hand
And watch you die
I've seen the needle in your arm
And your body naked full of scars
I've asked you
"why don't you quit now"
I'll go get you another apple pie
"you say you don't want to see me
Vomit and shit and cry
Like a baby"
You ask me
If i loved you
Enough to hold your hand and watch you die
Well i love you

But you can't ask me that
It's awful to witness such a waste
Of one of the purest soul i met
I cried in your bathroom for a long time
Until you called me back and said
"i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
I shouldn't do that to you"
I've seen all this blood
Covering your body and your face
And the red needle
On your white hotel bed
You ask me
If i loved you
Enough to hold your hand and watch you die
Well i love you
But i can't watch you die
I love you
But you're not gonna od now
I love you
And you deserve to be happy now
I love you
And i don't want you to die