Lyrics of This night i call (bad luck)

I smoke too many cigarettes
My back always hurts
I procrastinate and i scribble my words
Subject to a life long curse

I used to walk around so tall
Good looking kid with no problems at all
Had this world at my fingertips
Why in gods name did i turn out like this?
My lifes become a game of poker
Im losing every single hand
I cant seem to find my 2nd joker
I fold my cards are bad
I wonder how your painting is
How your family is doing too
And i wonder if your hands miss my arms
Or if they're holding someone new
My lifes become a game of poker
I lose every single hand
I cant seem to find my 2nd joker
I lost every chip i had
My hair is way too greasy
I know a shower wouldn't kill me
I cant help but think its none of these things
That make me walk around so lonely
But these haunted cold streets call me
They see my staggering feet try
I am not worth one of your tears
So please just close, please just close the door
On this night this night i call bad luck
This night i call bad luck