Lyrics of I'll try to smile

I think i'll go for a walk
'cause the whole world feels empty
Just the sound of the wind
Against my tired face
I wish i knew you were sleeping

I know i'm a little selfish
But your world seems so hollow
The concrete cracks and i hear him laugh
I wish i knew you were at home

And all this darkness makes me sad
I feel the rain hit the window
No phone to call
No car to drive
I wish i knew you were alone

And this kitchen is cold
But my coffee is still too hot to drink
But i'll try to smile
For you

I think i'll talk to her
She always makes me smile
Just the sound of her voice
When it hits my ears
I wish i could say you were guilty

And you can scream if you want
The truth is, it doesn't bother me
Maybe if you care
Or stopped the wounds you prepared.
I wish i could say this was your fault.

I'm going to sleep all day
'cause there's no point in being awake
I get so bored, frustrated and annoyed
And my mind gets so fucking anxious

Like an orchestrated line of lies
I'll fall apart tonight
But i'll try to smile
For you.