Lyrics of Troubled mind

Headin' down to the river, feelin' all undone
Might be for the best if i just stare into the sun
So i can't see, what a fool you made of me

Well, i am sittin' home alone, blue as i can be
Music turned up loud as hell, it hurts but just as well
But(?) i can hear people talking 'bout us dear

Chorus:
By the looks i get seems i am the last to know
Apologetic eyes follow me everywhere i go
I swear i'm twenty-twenty but i never saw the signs
And now i sit alone and try to ease my troubled mind

Headed down to the barroom to get myself a drink
Money in my pocket's gonna help me not to think
Of you at all, no i won't think of you at all

Well, i swear that women, she's like a mystery
I read those pages through and through
I still don't have a clue 'bout what went wrong
Or why she left after so long

( chorus - x2 )