Lyrics of Today i was an evil one

Tonight my eyes were hurting much
As i had strained them all day long
I don't remember waking up
My memory is not that strong

The day was spent walking about
And asking questions blindly
And silently and not without
A sense of lapsing dignity

Today i was an evil one
Who suffered dumbly having fun
Tomorrow god will make me good
If i allow her to, she would

I was found again in need
And mostly unprotected

As i had spent good time with greed
And giving was rejected

Today i was an evil one
Who suffered dumbly having fun
Tomorrow god will make me good
If i allow her to, she would

Well, the skin of all my fingers split
Painfully receding
My hands were dry and itched and hurt
And also they were bleeding

I can fix it by withdrawing
Claim from false completeness
And by humbly allowing
God to grant me sweetness