Lyrics of Letter to god

Dear god, i'm writing this letter to you
'cause i don't have a clue, can you help me?
I'm sitting here, simply trying to figure out
What my life's all about, can you tell me?

I never wanted to be the person you see
Can you tell me who i am?
I always wanted to die but you kept me here alive
Can you tell me who i am?

I lie awake conducting this symphony
That you have gifted to me but i can't ever sleep
Don't be mad but i get weak inside
And i start to fall apart 'cause i feel nothing

I never wanted to be some kind of comic relief
Please show me who i am
I've been tortured and scorned since the day that i was born
But i don't know who i am

And i thank you, man, for everything
Sorry, i'm so frightened about all of this
But i wish i could give you more
And all the lights are shining down on me
And i feel intimidated by it all

I never wanted to be the person you see
But thank you

Oh god, please tell me now
Are you disappointed, are you proud?
Haven't i done everything, everything?
I'm so sorry, i'm so weak and i turned into a freak
But i don't know anything, anything

I've lost all self esteem by burying everything
And i feel nothing, nothing
Oh god, please tell me now
Oh god, please tell me now 'cause i feel nothing

Dear god, i'm writing this letter to you
I am coming unglued, please help me