Lyrics of Oxen hope

You sent me off without a warning
Wasn't just a threat and man, that was no joke
Did you know you'd struck the final blow
To my faithful oxen hope?

We thought we knew we wanted what we had
But you busted your side of the yoke
So i left with almost nothing but a gaping whole
Yes, i did really went for broke

No matter how much i weigh, like a boxer i train
Seems like the future is always gonna have it's way
Knocking me down, should i fold or spread
My fortune hand on this hard rock bed?

And i don't question, no, i don't doubt
Now that i've tried living with and without
That was a hard, hard muscle to grow
And harder still to let go

We'd both commandeered a ship or two
We'd had our fun, yeah, we had a few
And wheels spun around and water flowed
In here deep before we felt the cold

And the ride we rode had danger in
We thought we could last while we were real strong swimmers
But we got flooded, yes, we got rolled
And we both went down soon as you cut the rope

I've been wondering lately if ever i'd find
Someone to hold me like he wanted mine
Should i give up or should i keep on trying?
Should i move on or should i keep on lying to myself

By saying it's all better this way
But all the life is gone, i want to stay
Now i've ruined it, you sound ages old
And i can feel that bearing down a part of my shoulders