Lyrics of My funeral

I never asked for your touch
I never asked for anyone
I never wanted to feel
I never want to be loved
Take my hand, but don't hold too tightly
'cause it seems that my favor comes and goes nightly
And i hate the silence but i keep fighting off everyone till their bed seems inviting
Don't go trying to change me, 'cause it'll take more than you just to save me
I'm so far gone that there's no place for me
In anyone's arms
In anyone's arms so break it like you mean it,'cause i don't need it
Now you got me thinking, is this what i want
When i die, they'll say "no one's here today"
It's my funeral
It's my funeral
So break it like you mean it,'cause i've been thinking i don't really need it
There's nothing i want
Give up
So what if i die alone
It's my funeral
It's my funeral
See these hands
They work hard to spite me
They're artists of their craft
That's why i'll never hold your burdens like they carry mine
But i've learned to love misery
And that's why i'll take the curse with me
Down to the grave
Down to the grave, i'll take this curse with me
When we're below, then you'll be safe
This is the fall
This is the remedy(i never asked for. i never wanted)
This is your way out
Way out (i never asked for anyone)
This is the flood
This is my reckoning (i never asked for. i never needed.)
This is the reason i can't be loved(i never wanted)
And i believe, we meet the person we were meant to love when we're ready for it
I'm just afraid that some of us never are
So if these are my last words, then i want it known, that i tried
But there's a part of me that just won't let me be happy
You were enough
I just wasn't enough for me