Lyrics of It's been awhile

It's been awhile
Since i could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since i first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since i could stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since i could call you

And everything i can remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that are rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since i could say
That i wasn't addicted
It's been awhile
Since i could say
I loved myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since i've gone and
F***ed things up
Just like i always do
And it's been awhile
But all that sh*t
Seems to disappear
When i'm with you

And everything i can remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that i've rendered
Have gone and f***ed things up again

Why must i feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile
Since i could
Look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since i said, 'i'm sorry'
And it's been awhile
Since i've seen the way
The candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But i can still remember
Just the way you taste

And everything i can remember
As f***ed up
As it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been awhile
Since i could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since i said, 'i'm sorry'